i have not been on in monthhsss

and really i just haven't really had much to take pictures of. i have some film that i've got developed at those 1 hour film developers at the convenience stores, although it took like two weeks and some of the pictures i took didn't even come out, but that could be due to the fact the the film i used wasn't traditional or what they normally develop. oh well.
i'll have to scan those pictures soon before i lose them all in the mess and chaos of my room and get them on here
and i know i need to take pictures with my digital camera but really there just isn't anything of interest to me take pictures of. i'm worn out of trying to angle myself to take a picture of myself, and no one is willing to model for me, and the shrubberys and plants out in arizona just aren't appealing to me. i know i'm supposed to take it into an artists perspective and say, hey, it's art, make it work. well, shit if i don't want to take a picture of a pile of fucking rocks i dont have to. or take a picture of brown road, because i simply find it BORING. blehh.
also i have only one lens shortening the range of what pictures i can take, but again i should also discard that fact and make it work with the whole artists perspective and all that..
i just want to work with people, with things, with pretty things that i with my own eyes find beautiful, not that i have to contort with a lens and angles just to make it beautiful. but i guess that's also the art to photography, that you need to learn how to shape your way around something ugly or boring or so common and turn it into something uncommon, and make it into something beautiful and desired, right?
i suppose i'll have to learn more about that when i get the time. too laazyy.